She forgave me. Actually, she never really hated me for it.
It was quite a burden that rolled off my shoulders. She doesn't hate me? Wow.
But that only makes her that much better then me. And I love her for it.
What am I saying? I hardly even know her. Well I thought I knew her before, but now, after not speaking for almost a year? She's bound to be a different person. With a totally different perspective and sure as hell a fresh set of eyes for my mischievous behavior.
And yet, I'll never forget her. Never forget the first day I met her. She was so young. But yet, there was something so old and wise about her.
I respected her instantly. She was just so different.
So, what do I do now? Do I leave Jane behind? Can I really do that to her?
Just the thought of hurting Jane one more time breaks my heart. I don't want to do that to her. But, on the other hand, we've been growing apart for a while now. And, then there is the fact that I could never have a normal family with Jane. Not with her family history. I want my child to have a good, solid family. Can she really do that, after the raising up she had?
And then there's Cindy. She a tough one. Can I even handle that? Two drama queens in one relationship?
And even more so, I'm actually imagining the relationship part. She never mentioned anything...
